A Rain of Grief

An ocean of suffering burst upon me, and I set out on the deserted street. Walked without in mind a destination, Walked towards this life's conclusion.
	Rain was falling, the atmosphere had cheer, but my grief-struck heart had no care. Getting wet in the biting cold, directionless I kept on my painful stroll.
Clouds were showering the earth, but the real storm brimmed inside my heart Getting wet in this grief-filled rain, directionless I kept on my walk of pain.
	The winter was outside, but the real chill was in inner emptiness, Shivering in that void so cold, directionless I kept on my painful stroll.

This is the English translation of a Hindi poem I had written a year back. - गम की बारिश

Explosion

The pain inside forebodes

that my heart will explode

if it doesn't find a vent -

to pour its contents.

My heart lies packed 

in a vacuum

within which unexpressed emotions

fight for room.

Emotions of love, doubt, anger, pain

rot inside in vain

It may have been a positive one,

but a rotting emotion always causes pain.

In all this suffocation,
I've had one realization -
I have to open up,
for my heart to lighten up.

My heart is a time-bomb,
ticking away in its last moments
brimming with rotting emotions
and feelings lying latent.

Heartbreak

One day a strong feeling rose,

it's time, to her I should propose.

But as fate chose,

I met only remorse.

Had written her a song,

which she found all wrong

As my eyes looked at the letter she tore,

'I want to never see you again!', she swore.

The pain was such, it was impossible to take

the pain of this horrible heartbreak

It felt as if she plunged into my heart

a bloody wooden stake

चश्मेवाला

इंतजार में तुम्हारे थक गया वो लड़का चश्मेवाला
जुदा तुमसे तनहाइयों में दब गया वो लड़का चश्मेवाला
दर्द-ए-दिल से टूट गया
बेरंग  ज़िन्दगी से रूठ गया वो लड़का  चश्मेवाला|

सपनों की दुनिया में अटक गया था
दुनिया की सच्चाई से भटक गया था वो
हो गया अब वो निराश है
पर उसे एक नई दिशा की तलाश है।

इस नई दिशा में चलता चलेगा वो
याद में तुम्हारी शायद कभी रो पड़ेगा वो
पर मुड़के ना देखेगा वो एक बार
ख्याल तुम्हारा आए चाहे जितनी बार ।

अब केवल दिमाग की सुनेगा वो
दिल के दरवाज़े कभी न खोलेगा वो
ओ चश्मेवाली ये मुश्किल तो होगा
पर अब  तुम्हे भूलेगा वो।

Xeno

Was coming back from work

all tired and spent from the day,

when with a smile on her face

a beautiful stranger passed me by.

It lasted just a few seconds

but my weariness was gone -

for that smile was mercy

the Lord Almighty had shown.

I looked into her eyes

in that moment ephemeral,

and smiled back

wishing it was eternal

That moment had no past, no future

and though it sounds too dramatic -

It was about living in the moment,

And God! That moment was magic!

चाँद और मैं

चाँद की ओर देखने लगा हूँ ,
उससे उम्मीदें बांधने लगा हूँ ,
अकेला खड़ा चाँद कि चांदनी में 
उससे सुख दुःख बाँटने लगा हूँ|

चाँद से बोलने वाले,
पागल  लगते  थे  मुझको |
जीवन कि सच्चाई से भागने वाले वो  लोग 
कामचोर लगते थे मुझको!

पर अब समझा हूँ मैं ,
क्या सुख है चांदनी रात के सूनेपन में .
क्या मधुर राग छिपे हैं 
चमकते चाँद की चुप्पी में!

-अमूल गर्ग